{ ..The Weight of Sigh.. }

*Consent

- This is based on a personal story, and it contains information about suicide and depression.

“If you want to experience these moments with me, please click the experience button below.

It may take some time to download it. But I believe it will give you some thoughts.

And if you have time while downloading it, please visit this website,

https://my-app-cudp7-kj9pv.ondigitalocean.app/

There are some questions, and it will be part of your experience.”

“It’s only working with windows laptop.

If you want to play with a Mac or VR device, I would love to provide those versions.

let me know anyway that I can make you feel better through these moments”

“Main keys are W,S,A,D, Space bar and Mouse.

If you press the Shift key, whole world is going to slow down”

< Abstract >

In these 10 different spaces, there are various materials that contain different meanings and interact among each other. And these contents can be accepted differently depending on users' experiences they have had in their lives. 

All contents in these spaces represent the sources of pain that I have experienced. Through exposing these materials continuously and using the word ‘release’ instead of ‘remove’, I wanted to make this experience become a part of the process to release the pain that can’t be removed. 

One of the points that I have learned from being an artist is that there is no such thing that can be encapsulated in one word or sentence that can give a sense of understanding from all the pains to all people. This is because every single person has a different weight of pain and even though the weight seems the same, it feels different depending on the tolerance of a person’s mind. Which means It was a very arrogant way of thinking that I believed that I could make something that can make everyone feel being healed. 

In addition, through experiencing the moment that I also could be in a position that can give a pain to others, eventually I was able to find out the goal of being an artist. That was “sharing and listening” instead of pushing my thoughts into someone else. Through sharing pains with others and listening to each other's thoughts, it might give a moment that people could genuinely give a node to each other from their heart. 

In my thoughts, as I mentioned earlier, every single pain is based on uncountable various reasons and conditions. And eventually it leaves scars in their mind and sometimes it keeps coming back to us as unbearable pain. However, through walking these spaces with me, I believe you will feel warmth in your heart. This is because I added beautiful moments that I was not able to pay attention to when I was in those moments and there are actual people, I met who always ready to give you warm hugs and words. 

Although I believe I can’t hold all the ashes that give you pain, I hope that you could give a chance to the wind to fly those away from you for a moment. 

< Technical Part >

• Making a complex Post processing material (to make a black and white effect every 40 seconds)

• PBR material (to build ice material for trashcan and 3rd room)

• 3D Rendering (to build every single material and figure) - Rhino 3D, Fusion 360, Maya and Shapr3D (iPad)

• WebSocket (for multiplayer on 2nd room) - It is not a downloadable version yet

• VaRest Plugin & API and HTTP request (More detail below)

• Niagara and Houdini for multiple morph and dissolve effects

• Metahuman with Livelink and Sequencer 

Detail: I constructed an API with node.js and I used Digital Ocean to deploy information between GitHub and the web server continuously without using localhost. And I made a web browser through JavaScript, HTTP and CSS. So, people can write some hopeful words on it. So, whenever people write something on the web, through the VaRest plugin that can make HTTP requests to the web server and Unreal takes information from it, whoever plays in Unreal can see them in real time. Moreover, through the number that people wrote on the website to represent their emotions, in the 10th moment, the light of the space is going to keep changing individually and simultaneous. This is one of the most important parts in this whole project. Because it makes people actually communicate with each other in various platform without actually being in VR.